twilight the movie vs. twilight the book

At last it is here! March 21st marked the release of the Twilight DVD. After seeing it 7 times in the theater I was anxious to finally own it so I could watch and re-watch it during my many sleepless nights.

As it is often the case...it is almost needless to say that the book is better than the movie but I enjoyed the film nonetheless.

What I liked:

Edward! Of course! I know some people were not crazy about him being picked to play Edward Cullen but I have no idea why because besides being gorgeous I thought he did a fantastic job bringing the character to life. He has a James Dean quality about him that helps add to the mystery of the character. One of my favorite scenes is in Biology when he introduces himself to Bella. His smooth voice and great laugh makes my heart race.

The dinner scene at the Bloated Toad is also one of my favs. Mainly because I want to eat there so bad. It looks absolutely charming…and that mushroom ravioli sounds delicious! What was up with the hair on that waitress though?

I also really enjoyed the scene when Bella goes to Edward’s house to meet his family. Who wouldn’t want to live there! I thought the mural of graduation caps was awesome…and I would kill to have Edward’s music collection.

The baseball scene is fantastic! It was so fun and I just thought it was all around cool!

Alice. I think she is so pretty and would love for her to be my best friend!

Esme. I just love her and wish she were my mom. It is almost too hard to believe she is a vampire.

Jasper. First off all I think Jackson Rathbone is so cute and I can’t wait until Eclipse comes out since he plays a big part in that book. I think his character is really interesting…so more Jasper please!

The prom scene is just visually stunning. It is hard to ignore the awe of the whole setting.


What I wasn’t crazy about:

Bella. There are some scenes where I thought she was good and then there are others where I can’t stand her in. For example in the beginning when Charlie gives her the truck I cringe at her reaction and at the end when she is in the hospital. I think she plays Bella way to awkward and I lose patience with her stammering and inability to form a sentence or even tell a joke. Like when she “jokes” about being kicked out of Arizona for not being tan…she looks like she is about to kill herself rather than adding comic relief. Then when Bella is at Edward’s house and he says, “What did you expect? Dungeons, coffins, and moats?” and she dryly replies, “not the moats.” This would have been a perfect opportunity to show another facet of her personality with a simple charming and shy smile while she says her line but she says it so serious the joke is lost. It is all about the delivery. I think that visually her and Edward look good together but she has got to lighten up. I really liked her hair and these really cool gray gloves she wears though.

Renee. I do not like Bella’s mom in the film with all her “Awe baby this and Ohhh baby that.” She sounds so condescending…my mom stopped calling me baby when I was one year old. I seriously hate all the scenes she is in.

In the book you learn about Esme, Carlisle and Alice’s past but they leave that all out in the film. They also left out the fact that Jasper has a special gift too. Knowing about each vampire is one of the most interesting things about this whole story so I am disappointed it was neglected.

They added the nomadic vampires killing people, which doesn’t happen in the book but didn’t bother me…I thought it was a nice addition to show the contrast between the two covens.

Overall I would say that what we are left with is what I like to call the Twilight Trifecta…great book…great soundtrack…great movie!

the music of twilight revisited

Music: Twilight Soundtrack

Every once in a new moon do I come across a soundtrack I love unconditionally and irrevocably…the Twilight Soundtrack is one such soundtrack. Honestly every song is incredible. Most notable is track 10…Never Think…written and preformed by yours truly Rob Pattinson. Favorite lines…

Girl save your soul
Go on save your soul
Before it’s too far gone
And before nothing can be done

Full Track Listing

1. Supermassive Black Hole – Muse
2. Decode - Paramore
3. Full Moon – The Black Ghosts
4. Leave Out All the Rest - Linkin Park
5. Spotlight (Twilight Mix) – Mutemath
6. Go All the Way (Into the Twilight) – Perry Farrell
7. Tremble For My Beloved – Collective Soul
8. I Caught Myself – Paramore
9. Eyes on Fire – Blue Foundation
10. Never Think – Rob Pattinson
11. Flightless Bird, American Mouth – Iron & Wine
12. Bella’s Lullaby – Carter Burwell


My only complaint, disappointment, sadness…the exclusion of Radiohead’s 15 Step and Let Me Sign by Rob Pattinson.

Why? For the love of god just tell me why?

twilight chapters 14 - epilogue

Book: Twilight
Author: Stephenie Meyer
Chapter(s): 14-Epilogue


Page 404…Jasper tells Bella…“You’re wrong, you know. I can feel what you’re feeling now – and you are worth it.” I liked this part. You don’t hear much from Jasper throughout the book so I found it enlightening to get another opinion. I know there are some people out there that don’t place their own worth in the hands of others, but I know it would make me think twice about whatever doubts I had after hearing something like that.

Page 473 – 474…Bella tells Edward…“I’ll be the first to admit that I have no experience with relationships. But it just seems logical…a man and woman have to be somewhat equal…as in, one of them can’t always be swooping in and saving the other one. They have to save each other equally.” I think Bella is talking about more than just saving each other but also about loving each other equally. While it sounds great in theory I have to admit here is where my skepticism steps in. There is always going to be some doubt as to the actual magnitude that someone claims to love you. So how can we ever really be equal? You might think that it simply rests in the type of person but I would expect even the most confident person to have a doubt or two every now and again. I mean even Edward questions Bella’s feelings. Granted because he can’t read her mind but that is just it…we can’t read each other’s minds so we never really know how someone really feels.

The top of page 495 starts with Edward saying to Bella...“Twilight, again, another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.” That also holds true for no matter how bad the day is. That is going to be my new serenity…Twilight. Whenever I am having a wretched day I am going to think Twilight and that no matter what the day has to end. And on the off chance I ever have a perfect day I will also think Twilight so I don’t take it for granted.

On the last page of the book Bella has made up her mind that she wants to be a vampire. Edward asks her…“Is that what you dream about? Being a monster?” She replies, “Mostly I dream about being with you forever.” This whole Bella becoming a vampire or not really confuses me. She is hell bent on it but Edward doesn’t want her to give up her human life, yet becoming a vampire will ensure that they are together forever. A lot of people are throwing the word “forever” around but it clearly means something different to everyone. Furthermore, he claims to be a selfish creature and that is why he didn’t stay away from her when he knew he should…so why stop now? The sexual tension in the book is so thick you would think that would be enough for him to just bite her already! Which leads me to say that I have a hard time believing that Edward really thinks of himself as a monster…especially because Bella doesn’t see him that way? He seems a lot more human than I think we are led to believe.



In Conclusion:

I guess the thing that got inside me as I held my breath the whole time I was reading the first book was the intensity of loving someone so avidly it can’t be real. It was like I stepped into the pages and was Bella. I felt it. If I think hard I am sure I have had those feelings in real life but compared to the roaring flame of Edward and Bella they seem like nothing more than a flicker. Not since Harry Potter have I enjoyed a book so much. I love how Stephenie Meyer describes not only the characters and their feelings but also their surroundings. I can’t thank her enough for bringing Edward into my life.

twilight chapter 13

Book: Twilight
Author: Stephenie Meyer
Chapter(s): 13

This entry is dedicated solely to chapter 13, entitled Confessions…because it is my favorite chapter in the whole book and possibly my favorite chapter ever!

The whole book we see everything through Bella’s eyes but in this chapter we get to see things from Edward’s perspective…which I find intoxicating. (having said that I am weeping on the inside about the Midnight Sun debacle…more about that later)

Page 266…“I’m essentially a selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should.” This made me think then later conclude that we all have a little vampire in us...as we are all fundamentally selfish creatures.

The next two sentences are two that Edward says to Bella that I just wanted to point out would make me stop breathing if ever said to me…

Page 273…“You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever.”

Page 294…“If I could dream at all, it would be about you. And I’m not ashamed of it.”

Page 300…Edward says…“I never imagined anything like this. I didn’t believe I would ever find someone I wanted to be with…in another way than my brothers and sisters.” Ok on the surface it is just another spine melting thing Edward says but from a reader’s standpoint I want to know why. Why hasn’t he found someone in 100 years? There has to be some reason and I wish that was touched on. It would give me more insight into his character and it would enforce that Edward really does want to be with Bella and not just eat her. Also…if I met a guy who hadn’t had a date in 100 years I would see that as a red flag….just saying.

Page 302…Edward tells Bella…“The glory of first love, and all that. It’s incredible, isn’t it, the difference between reading about something, seeing it in the pictures, and experiencing it?” Boy is it ever! Edward goes on to describe jealousy as having read about and seen it many times but it shocked him to experience it himself. What I find interesting is that Edward is experiencing love sort of in reverse in regards to me as the reader. He has experienced reading about love and is now experiencing it in real life…and I have experienced love in real life and am waiting to experience what I have read. (A girl can hope can’t she?)

Page 303…He says…“I knew that if I continued to ignore you as I should, or if I left for a few years, till you were gone, that someday you would say yes to Mike, or someone like him. It made me angry.” This made me question…does Edward really want to be with Bella or does he just not want her to be with someone else. The old…I don’t want you but I don’t want anyone else to have you. Then I thought…aren’t we all like that at some time or another and if so, do we really ever love someone? Hell, I don’t know but I can’t help think about it.

Page 305…Bella tells Edward that it doesn’t seem fair that he had to wait 100 years for her and she hasn’t had to wait at all for him. That made me wonder…how long is fair? If I think that 28 years is fair and long enough to wait do I then just take what I can get, settle, or shape what I do have into what I wish I had, or do I wait another 28 years? Seriously if anyone knows the answer…please tell me.

Page 307…Bella asks Edward why he resists what he is and Edward replies…“just because we’ve been…dealt a certain hand…it doesn’t mean that we can’t choose to rise above – to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can.” I think this is an important message that applies to life in general. We are all going through our own vampirism at one time or another. Fighting not to turn into some distorted and unrecognizable version of ourselves. Ultimately I think we are all just trying to stay…human.

Page 311…Edward tells Bella…“I know love and lust don’t always keep the same company.” Bella replies…“They do for me.” This gave me a lot of pause. It makes me think…wildly…but about what I am not entirely sure…since I am not able to form any kind of concrete conclusion. On their own each is scary enough but together they are terrifying. I am struggling to think of my experience with each…separately and together. Can you really have one without the other? If so, is it worth it? It is strange how two words, each just 4 letters, can create so many questions…no wonder I hardly sleep.


In conclusion: Best. Chapter. Ever.

twilight chapters 6-12

Book: Twilight
Author: Stephenie Meyer
Chapter(s): 6-12

Ok so I already finished Twilight. I was up till 3:30am for 3 days but I couldn’t put it down.
As I read I marked down the pages that had things I wanted to comment on.

Page 156…Bella spots a sliver Volvo and immediately thinks of Edward referring to him as a “Stupid, unreliable vampire.” This just made me laugh out loud. What a thing to say after all her intensity in regards to him.

Page 170…another delicious description of Edward’s eyes..."golden butterscotch.”

Page 178…“I watched him walk around the front of the car, amazed, yet again, by how graceful he was. I probably should have been used to that by now – but I wasn’t. I had a feeling Edward wasn’t the kind of person anyone got used to.” This made me think…while there is something to be said for familiarity how fantastic would it be to find and be with someone you were in complete awe of that their mannerisms were such that it was like you were experiencing them for the first time every time?

Page 188…“His eyes were gentle but intense, and they seemed to be making my bones turn soft.” This sentence just stood out to me. I like it. I can feel it.

Page 245...Edward tells Bella…“I told you – you don’t see yourself clearly at all. You’re not like anyone I’ve ever known. You fascinate me.” Clean up an aisle 10! I am still waiting for someone to say that to me…and mean it…really mean it. But this also made me think. Do we ever see ourselves clearly? I am still trying to figure myself out and if I ever met anyone even half close to Edward I would literally have to rethink everything I ever thought I knew. If something is always changing can we ever see it clearly?

the music of twilight

Music: Twilight Soundtrack



Nothing makes me more happy to be alive than finding new music to fixate on! Case in point…the Twilight Soundtrack. (I suppose I had to give my Dark Knight Soundtrack a rest eventually …and I am currently reading the book)

Immediate obsessions…Full Moon by The Black Ghosts and Eyes on Fire by Blue Foundation. I have never heard either of these bands and I am eager to check out the rest of their music.

Full Moon Lyrics

when the thorn bush turns white that's when I'll come home
I am going out to see what I can sow
And I don't know where I'll go
And I don't know what I'll see
But I'll try not to bring it back home with me

Like the morning sun your eyes will follow me
As you watch me wander, curse the powers that be
Cause all I want is here and now but its already been and gone
Our intentions always last that bit too long

Far far away, no voices sounding, no one around me and you're still there
Far far away, no choices passing, no time confounds me and you're still there

In the full moons light I listen to the stream
And in between the silence hear you calling me
But I don't know where I am and I don't trust who I've been
And If I come home how will I ever leave


I love every line in this song. The singer has this haunting voice that I love to sing along with...and it is hard to keep still with the jaunty sound. The strings evoke Celtic undertones that make me melt.

Eyes on Fire Lyrics

I'll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I've got nothing for you to gain

I'm taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I've got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

I equally love this song. Another haunting voice transports me to another place not of this world. Like I am wondering in a dream.

Favorite lines:
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

More to come as I continue to enjoy...

twilight chapters 1-5

Book: Twilight

Author: Stephenie Meyer
Chapter(s): 1-5

While I am all about discovering works from off the beaten track…I have to admit I am also a sucker for mainstream. Ipso facto…I am reading the #1 New York Times bestseller, Twilight. So far…I am absolutely loving it and finding it hard to put down.

The book is written in first person and told by Bella who, from what I know from all the hype, falls in love with Edward…who happens to be a vampire. Not just any Joe-six pack vampire but a rich and out of this world gorgeous vampire. Edward and the rest of his vampire family keep to themselves but Bella can’t help being drawn into the mysteriousness of them all. And then when Edward takes notice of Bella it is on like Donkey Kong!

First off, Bella. I like her. I can relate to her. She is mesmerized by this boy she hardly knows and wakes up thrilled to go to school just so she might get a look at him. Yet at the same time she hates that she is so affected by this person who starts off pretty much ignoring her…and who is so evasive it is maddening. I find it interesting that the more he ignores her the more she is drawn to him. I have been there, but after awhile you reason the guy is a loser and you could do better. But Bella is determined to figure him out. What I like though is that she doesn’t come off as scheming or trying to “get” Edward…it all happens quite naturally.

Her plight brings me back to when I was in school and pretty much all that mattered was your friends and being able to see your crush. But not just any crush…I am talking about the unattainable guy that all us girls have lusted after at one time or another. The guy who you would watch from across the lunch room and scan for in the halls in hopes that at just the right moment he would take notice of you for the first time. And that by some miracle or planetary alignment…out of all the girls in the school he would pick you. I haven’t had that feeling in what seems like ages.

Five chapters in…the main focus seems to be the description of Edward (trust me when I say I am in no way complaining). Besides being pale, not able to dance, fainting at the sight of blood and being obsessed with Edward there is not much more that stands out about Bella at this point so I am anxious to see how her character develops.

Edward. All I can say is I can’t think of another book that I have read that makes me want to orgasm based solely on a character’s dialogue. He is the smoothest son of a gun I have ever experienced and it doesn’t surprise me that he is completely fictional. He is undoubtedly good looking and mysterious, but what does it for me is what he says and how it says it. One description is…“His voice was like melting honey”. I don’t know how I will be able to feel the same way about honey ever again.

I can’t speak for everyone but he says all the things I would die to have said to me…and I only just finished chapter five!

Edward is sitting alone at lunch and motions for Bella to come over to him. When she does he says, “Why don’t you sit with me today?” Bella sits down and is not sure what to make of this turn of events but Edward goes on to say, “I decided as long as I was going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly.” When I read this I got Goosebumps. This sets the tone for something forbidden and what usually lurks behind forbidden is passion and tragedy. Plus…I can’t help but being somewhat envious of anyone embracing hell and going all out. It must be so freeing.

Edward has this commanding coolness about him that I can’t even quite describe because it is more than just having confidence. When Edward blocks Bella’s car and Tyler comes up to the window to ask her to the spring dance…Bella asks Edward if he did it just to annoy her and he replies, “That was for Tyler’s sake, not mine. I had to give him his chance”. I could not be anything but intrigued if a guy said that to me. It is like he already knows what is going to happen between the two of them.

The writing. It is so good that I find myself re-reading sentences and paragraphs just so I can experience them again. You have to give props to anyone who can continually describe a character in such assorted ways that you never tire of hearing how perfect they are. I can’t help but want more of Edward. Every little nugget of information you learn about him directly or by Bella’s assessment of him is like a precious sip of water after days abandoned out in the desert sun.


Stephenie Meyer…you had me at the first Bruce Wayne reference.